Van, Work, and Laziness

I've been worried since last winter about how I was going to be transporting my special needs son. He's in a wheelchair and soon will be getting to big for me to pick-up and put in a car seat. Last winter, I nearly dropped in on the ice a couple of times! So I knew we'd need a wheelchair accessible van, but I had no idea how we were going to get one.

My son's insurance will cover the cost of having a van converted, but not for the van itself and I had considered doing a fundraiser, but never really felt comfortable with the idea.

Meanwhile, my parent's are struggling to make ends meet and they got a letter stating the vehicle my mom and I share is going to be repossessed. My dad heard one of our neighbors was selling they're old van for $2000, but they might take $1500 from us. My dad and I talked about it and figured we could come up with $1000. So my dad called them to see if they'd be interested in taking payments; but he was told instead that we could have it free!

It may not look impressive, but to me it is the most beautiful thing in the world. It amazes me how God works; he knew we needed a vehicle and he provide. Amazing. :D


I'm really enjoying my new job and I think it is going to be a lot better then I thought it would. What excites me the most is that I'll have money to buy my kids plenty of nice clothes for the winter! (No more crappy Walmart stuff!)

I know all of this is way off from bentos, but I will get to the point.

One of my greatest faults is my extreme desire to do nothing. Really not nothing, but my desire to read/research for hours! Combine this with my ability to completely shut down when I feel overwhelmed and you can understand why my website was neglected for so long (not to mention why it's taking me so long to lose weight). It really takes a lot of determination for me to overcome these things at times.

September and October were shutdown months for me. I didn't do any homeschooling with my kids, I didn't exercise, I quit eating right, I didn't want to cook anything; you get the idea. And I was miserble.

I feel these two bentos represent my coming back. They were both made today (lst for breakfast, 2nd for supper). Tomorrow, I'm going to try to get to the gym, but I'm not going to push myself. If I go too fast I know I'll get overwhelmed. I have made it a goal to make at least 2 bentos for work each week.

Sorry if none of this makes sense; what I'm trying to say is, "I'm back, I'm struggling, but I'm happy."